Today I speak my Truth for the whole World to See. I am 52 years old. My whole life I have felt broken. I have internalized people’s judgments upon me whether it were their truths or mine. I buried myself in this deep dark hole feeling I always had to be better than me. I remember growing up and always having to prove myself. And people most often weren’t too shy to remind me that I wasn’t good enough. Then the hole only got deeper and deeper. I can now feel the Seed of Life inside me. The Seed that was taken away from Me as a young child. When I close my eyes I can take myself back to only memories of this place. There is no light only darkness. Without my parents Love I wouldn’t be able to fly. Without my sisters Love I wouldn’t be able to fly. Without my husband’s Love I wouldn’t be able to fly. I saw an Angel in my daughter when she died at 5 days old. I saw her wings and they have helped me fly. I Now nurture the Seed of Love in my Heart. I feel Alive. At the age of 52 I only just got my wings back and I feel like I can fly. Maybe I had those wings all that time but I didn’t know how to Love myself. Maybe I did. Maybe I just didn’t know that I could fly. I kept bumping into things and loosing track of time. I have Now found my way out of the dark hole. I really do feel Alive. I know Now what it feels like to be connected to the Heaven, Earth and Skies. Now when I close my eyes I see a white wall with an open door and out of the darkness I fly. A white dove. I feel its breath fly. I feel its Life. There’s a sense that other birds are being released and Now they fly. The darkness beyond the wall still exists and maybe it always will. I have faith though that as Humans Beings on this Planet Earth we can enable each other to fly. Isabella Frangipani Reys Wilson taught me of Hope, Faith & Love. Another gift that I had to learn on my journey of Life was the importance of Family. Without my friends – my Guardians Angels – in the flesh of Spirit or the Light of Love I wouldn’t have been able to fly. So I thank everyone from the deepest part of my red glowing heart. My journey has only just begun. I know Now that my Voice counts. I know Now that I am Enough. I know Now that I am Whole. I know Now that I AM. My belief in my God and belief in my Ancestors has given me a New Life. And there I fly.
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